Life is crazy sometimes, the ups and downs we experience can truly test all of us, spiritually, mentally and emotionally. I had been healing well from my concussion and a month ago I had to visit my doctor because I was experiencing severe stomach inflammation, pain and burning. It turns out the Doctor told me I more than likely have stomach ulcers and I’ve been dealing with excruciating pain and inflammation these past few weeks. I asked for a CT scan of my abdomen just to make sure it wasn’t anything more serious, results came back normal luckily, but it has not taken away from the mental anguish and anxiety I have been dealing with. Aside from taking the prescribed medication I’ve done so much research on gut health. Mastic Gum seems to be something I came across that has been helping me a lot, it seems like I had an H. Pylori infection.

But why did I get sick? Why now? I have been self analyzing these past few months of my life and I realized that I had been dealing with a lot of mental and emotional stress. I was over eating and eating a lot of processed junk and don’t get me started on sweets! I was trying to deal with my emotional anguish with food and not the good kind. All of this resulted me in having poor gut health and allowing this bacteria to eat away at my stomach lining eventually leading me to a month straight out of hell! But now knowing this I have completely re-structured my diet to a point where I don’t think I have ever eaten this whole in my life and I am recovering and my stomach is starting to feel normal again.

I realized that our body getting sick is its mechanism of letting us know something in your life is not right. Something is going on and it is manifesting as this disease. I’ve had to take a good introspective look at myself and what I found inside was someone who was not taking care of themselves. Someone who needs love and respect and deliberate attention, an attention of kindness. I now know that I was using food as a way to deal with things as an escape, sugar as an escape, processed food as an escape and instead of escaping I have dove right in. I have dove straight in to the madness and hugged it, I have hugged the cactus and I am better of for it, for loving myself.

The message got across and I am healing, healing my gut, healing my emotions, healing my soul.